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It’s how we were raised. . .:

Another point that is natural as any other point, but what we fail to realize is how we were brought up.  Could it be something passed down from generation to generation by family morals and beliefs? I can’t say, but its something to think about.  It is true that you are a product of your enviroment and even more so true that we can change our outcome and how we think. Not everything is always left to blame on our upbringing. I mean you would think that for us ( humans) to be such an ” evolved ” species  we would understand that people will be people. Now, I’m not trying to coerce you all to ride the rainbow of love and glitter sprinkles , but the petty issues we have with each other shouldn’t be made problems at all , but  instead, a celebration. Too often I see people harboring negativity  and hate when they should be happy and keep it moving.

I know that people are going to be different from me , but I also know that its my choice who I associate myself with. I understand that instead of being hateful  towards other people and their thoughts or ways of life at the end of the day  I decide what I agree with and not. It is not beneficial to me to downplay anything anyone else is doing or why they are doing it.  We should only concern oursleves with that when it comes to what we do individually.

The competition factor:

Think about something:  since we were youngin’s in grade school we have always been ranked and compared to our peers. This holds true in the sticker  stars kindergarten teachers gave us for progress to winning trophies and accommodations in high school sports or academics. Like it or not, we have been wired to think we fit in a certain rank among our peers and because of that it has made some of us hate and judge based off of initial encounters we have with other  people.

The pressure has inadvertently  been there and that’s why we hate each other . . . especially  in  WOMEN. Some women just don’t know how to deal with other women’s'  success, achievements, happiness ect… So what do they do? They go on a tirade of “ I hate that bitch“ . .  ”she only got that cause. . . “” she ain’t no body forget her. . ” la-di-da bs we all know story lol but this hatred aspect comes from everyone’s rooted desire to compete and be better than the next chick. I see this  all the time so I know you guys see often too. It really all is jealousy because what that person sees in you is everything they want but don’t have yet so the natural human reaction is to HATE on that and hope that YOU fail.

Shoot, it has happened to me, lol.I got in a zone where things were going well for me in my life . I became happy emotionally , spiritually, financial  and physical but   I had chicks hovering  on the sidelines waiting to see me fail or try to do everything in their power to ruin my happiness.

Listen WOMEN and MEN we need to stop this childishness. I believe the reason people are so quick to “hate” on each other and what each other are doing is because you are too focused on comparing yourself instead of just doing YOU. Let go and stop competing with people it will take all the pressure off and most important all the negativity will end from  your life. Your MAIN job is to accept and realize that there is ONLY ONE  of YOU and to roll hard with YOU. I believe if we all did that there wouldn’t be a lot of bitter chicks running around holding assumptions or grudges based on  societies perception of what should be.

Writing has always been a vessel of release for me. I’m sure that when some of us were younger we all had that diary or journal where we would write in and put all of our deepest thoughts . In the beginning I would write more poetry then anything else, play around with beats on my Casio keyboard and get to work. My cousin Adrian can attest to that.  I ALWAYS had a creative side to me, but in a way was a very shy child and when it came to my writings or poetry my problem was  letting people in and sharing the more serious intellectual side of me.

Ever since I can remember I always put effort into writing, music, and modeling not because I was looking for a break, but because that it is something I LOVE to do and finally  wanted to share with others. That very thing is what I expressed to a photogrpaher yesterday in one of our conversations. Maybe I am wrong, but I never went into any of those venues stressing about “THIS has to be IT for me” because I always remained realistic about how life is and how it could be .I’m am not saying this because I haven’t succeeded as far as some” expected”I am saying this because sometimes people focus on the wrong things ( I use to be one of those people #truestory, lol). So, as I continued to do what I love I  put even more effort to make sure my future is sound, getting an education and getting a JOB(s).  I’m not knocking anyone  by all means,  but I feel that I should write this for the record :) .   I am very fortunate that people can relate to what I say in my post or in my poetry. I strive to connect to people on that level first instead of it being about money, cause like I already said I don’t rely solely on this to MAKE or BREAK me. I decide my self-worth and I am blessed . My payment in all this is being able to release and  touch someone  not persuade them for some monetary value. So I guess you  can call me  another fly by night  ”blogger” it is what it is , lol. Anyone with an internet connection and the means can also setup some account where they post their thoughts or musings and that is beautiful to me . So I suppose I am gonna keep on blogging and you can keep on reading if you like. . . either way I am going to be just fine and I am going to keep doing me and what I Love to do.